why do i try so hard?

hAVE YOU EVER WONDERED WHY YOU SEARCH FOR LOVE? WHY DO YOU NEED IT? WELL MY ISSUE IS PUSHING THOSE AWAY THAT I LOVE CUZ O TRY TO FORCE IT UPON THEM I DONT MEAN IT BUT I FEEL SOMETIMES AS IF IM IN NEED OF LOVE. I DONT KNOW WHY THATS JUS HOW I FEEL EVERYONE NEEDS LOVE AND MAYBE I SEEK IT MORE THAN OTHERS I KNOW THAT THERE IS ONE OUT THERE FOR ME BUT WHEN WILL THAT DAY COME WHEN I FIND HER? WHEN WILL MY EMPTINESS CEASE? WHY DO I FEEL AN EMPTINESS? WILL LOVE REALLY COMPLETE ME OR WILL THE AFFECTION OF THE ONE I LOVE COMPLETE ME I WILL NEVER KNOW BUT I WISH I DIDNT TRY SO HARD AND ALLOWED LOVE TO FIND ME BUT WILL THAT HAPPEN! I CANT WAIT TO FIND OUT!